junkkk

I KNOW its been like freaking forever since i did this... i think im too lazy for a blog..? idk lol.. well.. thanksgiving was awesome, ALOT of family came... so much food and just everything was a blast, i think im really doing alot better on the whole w/o erika thing, i know it relly blows but i think im liking flirting with people and just hanging out with other people and junk.. but yeah, thanksgiving junk... after that like.. idk just been hanging out with people alot lately.. and i kinda miss it. i think, being with erika kinda stole all my friends and im finally glad to hang out with them again. :) also been talking to alot of new people on facebook. :P i know how much i love blogging, im just so lazy to start but once i start its really fun just like sharing about my junk :)... so like. i went to the christmas parade tonight to go hang out with this one chick and she looked alot prettier in her facebook picture... o_o her freidn was really pretty tho! but i kinda just got my food and hung out with some of my friends :P she left like 30mins later... bummerrr... then i went home with xavier and met him family. his mom was really pretty for a mom o_o and his borther was funny, but yeah... tomorrow going to hang out with another friend as well, should be fun too ^^ yeah ill TRY to post more blogs alot faster instead of just cramming alot into 1 blog lol WELL PEACE OUT PEEPS :)))

11/18 random

so today... i went and got a bank account went to mcdonalds waiting 15-20mins for 2 cheeseburgers and a small fry(ridiculous) and i got home and facebooked some peeps. :P so this girl told me that she liked me.. i know shes reading it so (no comment) i like this girl and awhile ago she told me she liked me and that was awhile ago but im still working on it, i dont even know if i wanna date anyone atm.. even if she wanted to.. she said itd be good if i found someone to help me distract myself from erika, but yeah... i dont wanna end up distracting myself from her by making another problem... but yeah.. idk just random junk i was playing runescape today and a few of my friends wanted me to go bossing and im a lvl 72.... so them lvl 129 and lvl 121 were wanting me a lvl 72 to boss a lvl 230 with them, but it was crazy fun and they shared loot we both about 1m alltogether and were owned a big fatass mole alot of times lol we all got about 200k :P cus we did this thing were he thought we'd get more money but it didnt work we lost some lol, anyways emma made me do this probably cus she wanted to see what i thought about her telling me she liked me, but yeah peace out people ill try and do another tomorrow ^_^

friends

high school u make the best of friends! so many different kinds of people there have different cliques and origanizations and all kinds of crap i think it was literally the best time of my life even though alot of it i spent playing yugioh or magic or some kind of card game lol. met so many great friends! tim,nin,ryan,corey,tyler,the other tyler,billy,i even hung out with jeff some although he was kinda weird lol james, the other cory, derrik, patrick, brianna, krystelle, casey, shyniiah, pasha, ducky, sam, lester, mariah, uhh.. and so many more aha! made SO MANY GOOD MEMORIES in high school! it literally was the best time of my life. what sucks is.. like right after i graduated i moved so im near like 0 people and since high school has been over i havent gotten to see like anyone! it sucks. >.< i miss my friendssss but maybe ill get to see some of them before i go, i really hope i do cus itll be awesomeee :D but yeah ima try and do 1 a day blogs peeps cya :]

love?

love is such a strong word and like people just toss it around all the time just to get inside you.. it feels like everytime ive really gotten hurt and it just sucks.. cus whenever i really love someone seems like they just take whatever they can and leave... its happened with all the girls ive loved.. feels like everything is PERFECT and this boom gone the next day.. it just really blows and then i constantly feel like dying from the pain inside me.. alot of the times i feel eh.. but i just put on a face put on a facade just so i dont have to explain why im sad.. seems alot easier to pretend like im happy.. but back to love.. the other day i called my ex.. and i ended up crying alittle on the phone with her and then all she said was "i gtg now" i said "u sure now?" she said "bye" hung up... it just really blows.. i was with her for a year and a half and a month later she can barely stand me and has a new bf... feels like there are no good girls left in the world.. love really blows.. and on top of that all the songs that have anything to do with love remind me of her and then make me feel sad. >.< so.. the other day i told sent her a message about a ton of crap and then how i just couldnt talk to her anymore... and i deleted and blocked her :X i dont know whats that gonna do to her.. i hope itll at least make her realize that i love her maybe she would actually care about me some again.. cus atm.. im pretty sure she could care less about me.. and im pretty sure emma is the only person that is gonna read this cus i dont even know how to use this website, but u can share it with other people or give it to the website cus it kinda feels good to just vent away everything...

dubstep

so like... ive been listening to this awesome new music and its freaking AMAZING! its kinda like techno and some weird crazy dj doing it? its called dubstep! today me and my krystelle were talking about it and she said it makes guys horny when they listen to it *shes heard* i was like... wtf?? no it dont lmfao i dont know if i made the title right or w/e or if anyone is even ever gonna read this but first blog? :P EMMA HELPED ME MAKE IT! :D